Hmph

have you ever had a paranoid feeling that someone is hiding something from you and you're dying to know but you don't ask bcoz you're afraid it'll piss that person off and cause a big stoopid fight?

i'm having that feeling now. i dunno why. i tried to do some research just now, couldn't find what i wanted to know. it used to be there but, suddenly, after that person knew what i was doing, suddenly hilang pulak that thing. ei............... what the fuck??! (can i say that?)

now, who won't be paranoid? you would be, won't you? it's harmless, the action, but bcoz of someone's action, it became suspicious. hm...... when we ask that person, that person say dunno, pulak..

should i pursue my research, or let it go, bcoz it's the past? but how would you learn if not from the past? how would you understand if not from the past?

i'm just curious you know. tell me what i want and i'll be satisfied. avoid me, i'll pursue you like a hound. dangerously stoopid. i know it is, but, how would you learn if you don't do that?
the fuck with what others would think.

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i just realised something, i forgot about that. the above reflects what i didn't remember.

now, don't i feel relieved i didn't 'charge!!!' sukati?

(=P