depression

until today, i never actually realised how depressing one can be.
i don wan to turn my blog into an ALL complain blog bcoz i know there are others with bigger problems than mine, but, how else do i express wat's in my heart and my messed up brain?

i just got my moolah yesterday, and already i barely have enough to pass the month with. not to mention i'm starting my masters program in august, which means i'll be going to kl for registration, first class, classes just before the mid term and final, which means i have to spend on air tickets. plus, my doter is always sick nowadays on the account of the weather and one time medic bill for her is always, ALWAYS about RM100. imagine IF she has to go to normah, twice a month, cannot live liao la....

i'm trying to figure out a way to pay for the expenses myself rather than depend on my parents. i'm too old to do that now. besides, they're already paying for my masters. so.. i am now looking for a part time job, as, what else if not a tutor. haih.. i guess that means i have to put watever i have in mind on hold for now.

i never have enough money, but, it just hit me real hard this time. well, i better start printing out my resume.

bye.