Ow...

i went kayaking last saturday with juliana's friends, francis and joseph. the 4 of us started out on a gloomy rainy morning to a river called i'm not sure. (means i don't know the exact name of the river lah...)
i felt kind of awkward because i'm not really used to being around 'matured' people. joseph is young but francis is like my dad... my ride with him (ju rode with joseph) was really quiet with only a few polite q&a. sigh.... like i said i'm not good around 'matured' people.... sigh....
anyway, when we arrived at the river, the weather had cleared and we 'launched' off without any problems.
the 'cruise' was ABSOLUTELY AMAZING..... the river scenery was beautiful... the water was so tempting... it was great............

for more accurate and picturesque information plus pictures, please refer to the below blog:
www.fh2o.blogspot.com
hehe.... never was good in descriptive essay... hehe...

that afternoon, my left shoulder felt like coming off plus it felt like it was cast in plaster (very the keras) and i moved like a stiff wood because my legs were still trying to curl itself into a kayak sitting position... talk about being rusty and stiff....
yes... i know.... i need to exercise more to be more lithe and nimble and flexible and stretchable...
tunggu i plant the seed of 'kerajinan' lok la...
BUT.. i am starting now, i control what i eat, i don't stuff myself until i'm tight (surprising.. hehe..) and... i go kayaking with strangers to expose myself to others, to learn from them, to be more confident and brave plus... i'm TRYING to polish my social skills (talking to strangers lah..)

today, both of my neck muscle hurt, my thighs hurt too and.... well, udah lah.... esok gik..

auww.....

sigh..

watched oprah yesterday and it really got me.

the show was about child trafficking. kesian really. imagine what's it like... you're just 4/5 yrs old, sold off by your parents and forced to do things that a child shouldn't even be thinking off. it makes you want to cry...

and i asked myself WHAT CAN I DO?

i wish i'm like BONO and BILL GATES. have the money, have the fame.

GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! it's so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT CAN WE DO??????

i hope who ever stumbles upon my blog can give some ideas how WE can help.

too often have i read, seen, heard and did nothing. I, have a 4 yr girl. THANK YOU GOD for the life that you give me. my girl don't have to face the same fate as those poor girls. but WE can make a difference.

Some countries condemn thise perversity but DO NOTHING to stop it. They don't want to be known as sex tourist countries BUT IF YOU GO THERE, brothels operate openly. they even show you little children to 'entice' you. what is their government doing to stop all these from happening?

nothing.

bribes don't cost much in those countries. a few notes, you can get anything and AWAY with anything.

I AM MAD, I AM RESTLESS, I AM NOT COMFORTABLE, I WANT TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS.

STOP CHILD TRAFFICKING. IT'S WRONG. IT'S IMMORAL. IT'S BEASTLY. IT'S HORRIBLE. IT'S NOT HUMAN.

IF YOU ARE READING THIS, AND IF YOU COME FROM WHERE CHILD TRAFFICKING IS SERIOUS, DO SOMETHING. ANYTHING. STOP IT.

SAVE THEM. SAVE OUR FUTURE.

think....
what if it was me?

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aiya, never mind that i'm 5 days late to wish everybody the new year..

so.
today, i wear pink to work. yes. pink. cardigan and top. not the bottom part, it'lll make my ass bigger than it is now!! hah!
i am determined to change the way i dress myself. i will show what i can show and hide what i can hide. ;p
a bunch of newfound friends gave the push to this change. look weird, feels weird (esp with ppl staring at my boobies) but i'll get used to it. wat are breasts for if not to show anyway? if god wanted us to hide them, he wouldn't have made them so obviously forward...hah!! ;P

but seriously, i don't mean to say, "GIRLS!!OFF WITH THE TOP AND LET 'EM LOOSE!!" jiggle..jiggle.. haha...

i guess, i'm what you'll call, accepting my fat and all..

yup.
self acceptance.

so, next?